It's january 2nd ( :O ) and I haven't even flipped out yet. Well, I'm almost flipping out, school starts in two days, and i have to work tomorrow, so that barely counts for a day .. Grr.

Anyways, the last couple of days have been great actually. I spent New Year's with two of my friends, and we had fun. It was nice and quiet, but, hey, there's another New Year's at the end of the year, maybe I'll find a party then?

I'm glad I didn't stress out this year. It helped a little that I had a lot to drink, but the point is: I didn't freak out. I am now, a little bit, but that's fine. Mostly I'm freaking out because I watched the last episode of the DVD box with Gossip Girl, and THAT scares me a little.
Gossip Girl ended (for a while), but my life is just starting. I've gone through one sixth of my time on Rysensteen (my school), and I don't feel like we've begun at all. Still I feel that time is passing by to fast. Christmas break lasts for three weeks, and now those three weeks are (*POOF*) gone.

I'm reading a book called "Big Mouth and Ugly Girl", and though time is passing by fast, it's not when I'm reading in English. I have to write a little resumé of each chapter, and I also have to notice things about some of the characters. And I have to write that down as well. So that takes up most of my time today, except I'm also going to the movies with a friend.

My mom thinks that I should see a shrink. She thought that for a while and now I agree. But now she thinks that the stress isn't serious enough, so she's avoiding to talk about it. I think, maybe she's embarassed that her daughter needs help. But if I don't get help now it will take me down, and maybe I won't be able to have a normal job when I grow up, because I couldn't handle to get a good eduation.. I don't want that, and I don't think my mom wants that either.

I flipped my calendar today. For the first time. It has little sarcastic comics on it. Today it's a drawing of a woman and a man (it's his birthday), and the woman is saying (happy): "I just got a text. Your sister just gave birth! A little girl..." and then the man breaks in: "Nooooooooooo! This is not happening! Everyone will forget that today is MY birthday! I already hate that fucking little, thunder-stealing shithead!". I think that describes most danish people in a nutshell. It's all; me, me, me, me, me, me, ME! Everyone is so selfish and it's so frustrating.

After COP15 we've all been very disappointed. We didn't get a deal and we were SO close. When the COP was going on, the police of Copenhagen had reinforcements send in from Sweden and Germany to prevent anything from happening. But on december 12th when there was a huge demonstration, the police let people sit on the freezing ground for several hours. Of course they appologized after the "incident" but that's not useful. I saw a picture of two policemen holding single man to the ground, while the man was sitting as still and peaceful as he could, and he just looked into the camera and said: "This is what democracy looks like." I loved the sarcasm. Why don't we have the right to say what we want and have the opinions we want. I mean, they say that we have the rights to say whatever we want. Apparently we don't.

I don't like living in our society. I don't just mean Denmark, I mean the World. When we make big gatherings with the most important people on the entire planet, then still there's people who want to ruin it. It's not just the police who are wrong about how they treat people. 'Cause there's a reason they had to go this far. It's not nice when you, on your way home from school, has to see several humanbeings being frisked. We don't usually see these things in Denmark. We have one of the lowest violence rates in the World, but when we try to do something nice, we have to protect ourselves against it. I don't like living in a world where we have to protect ourselves before we can protect our surroundings. I mean, nature is the only reason we're here, why can't we accept that nature's the only thing that can make sure we'll keep on surviving. Why can't we just make our decisions nice and quiet without our fellow humanbeings trying to spoil it with bombs and anthrax? If we ruin our options now, we are also ruining our own chances.
Apparently there are people who do not want to be alive in 50 years.
Apparently there are people who do not want their children and grandchildren to be able to live on our planet.
Apparently there are people who do not want their descendants to enjoy our society and the things we worked so hard at gaining (just an example: DEMOCRACY).
Apparently there are people who do not want these things to rule our world.
What do they want then? Dictatorship? I thought we were sending recruits to all sorts of places in the world to prevent this?
It's not nice to know that there are people out there (although few) who forces our police walking around hand-in-hand with Home Guard walking around on the streets to keep us safe. I know we're trying to protect the important people from being attacked, but does that mean that we, the "mortals" have to be frisked?

Sorry, this has been during outbreaks for a couple of weeks.

Now I'm going to eat chocolate cake .